Reflections
Sometimes life is strange. I'm back in Connecticut, where I grew up, where I lived for 22 years. Almost 4 years ago exactly I moved to the West Coast. Now life in Connecticut is not so normal to me. I understand it, but I don't think I could come back to it. Once you've left somewhere and seen more, it's strange to step back to the way things were earlier.
I am always reminded of this when I return home to visit my family and the few friends with whom I keep in touch. I live in a different world now, San Diego is about as far as you can get from Connecticut while still in the United States. But after you've seen more, you only desire to see more. I still feel like there is so much out there for me to see, do, and experience. And I read plenty of blogs and books to see that what I've seen and done is insignificant.
But upon returning to visit, things here in CT are much as they were four years ago for the people who still live here and haven't left, or have left only to return. I cannot return because I am seeking more. But when I return and converse with those who have never left I realize that things are different for different people. Some people don't seek more, some do but don't ever do anything about it. This only inspires me more.
When I am here one of the things I hear most often is, "I hate it here." I hear this from both family and friends. So why don't you change it? Well, I don't know. I can't. Why? It really makes me wonder. Although really I am no different because I am wanting right now to do more but I don't do it. It's quite ironic.
I am quite conservative with my money, that may be a reason. I don't want to hurt my future by doing too much too soon. But I also don't want to hurt the present by not doing enough soon enough. This is another thing I hear quite often. "I can't do it because I can't afford it." Although I've caught myself saying that too. Life is funny. I want to do it the best way possible, and witnessing these events and writing this post are all part of the process of inspiring and reminding of what there is and what can be done.
I am always reminded of this when I return home to visit my family and the few friends with whom I keep in touch. I live in a different world now, San Diego is about as far as you can get from Connecticut while still in the United States. But after you've seen more, you only desire to see more. I still feel like there is so much out there for me to see, do, and experience. And I read plenty of blogs and books to see that what I've seen and done is insignificant.
But upon returning to visit, things here in CT are much as they were four years ago for the people who still live here and haven't left, or have left only to return. I cannot return because I am seeking more. But when I return and converse with those who have never left I realize that things are different for different people. Some people don't seek more, some do but don't ever do anything about it. This only inspires me more.
When I am here one of the things I hear most often is, "I hate it here." I hear this from both family and friends. So why don't you change it? Well, I don't know. I can't. Why? It really makes me wonder. Although really I am no different because I am wanting right now to do more but I don't do it. It's quite ironic.
I am quite conservative with my money, that may be a reason. I don't want to hurt my future by doing too much too soon. But I also don't want to hurt the present by not doing enough soon enough. This is another thing I hear quite often. "I can't do it because I can't afford it." Although I've caught myself saying that too. Life is funny. I want to do it the best way possible, and witnessing these events and writing this post are all part of the process of inspiring and reminding of what there is and what can be done.
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