Man, what is going on?

Well, quite a bit actually. I took a killer road trip this weekend, from San Diego up the coast to San Francisco, and amazingly it was a great trip. We returned to find Southern California burning up. We were in Malibu on Friday night, and have since found out that the places we were burned down a short 36 hours later.

Now I'm supposed to be working, I'm able to "work from home" since they have recommended people don't go to the office if they don't need to. So basically I am sitting here watching the news, blogging, walking around aimlessly, and loading music onto my IPOD. But this has all got me thinking...

I swear I feel like a broken record sometimes, as anyone who has read my this for any amount of time knows, I really have a hard time going to work to sit in an office all day long. And this whole apocalyptic scenario just doesn't help. I find it incredibly hard to care about a business that is insignificant in the whole scheme of things, when 500,000 people in San Diego are being evacuated from their homes and the world around us is going to shit. I just don't know what the hell I want to do. There are so many things out there in the world that I'd like to be a part of, but at the same time none of them I am any more or less passionate about.

And I've been still spinning my wheels trying to figure out if I want to try to stay in San Diego since this whole separation with my wife. Do I want to travel? Do I want to quit my job and find something else that pays less but doesn't suck my soul out of me? Do I want to stay here, suck it up, keep my job and get back on my feet? Do I want to move somewhere else and find a job? Fuck if I know.

To make matters more confusing for me, I have recently found myself developing a little school boy crush on a girl that I am friends with who has a boyfriend, but just keeps seeming more amazing and flirty to me everyday.

WTF?

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