Time for an update

I had someone remind me that I haven't blogged in a long time. This is true. I guess I have just been blogged out lately, a lot of what I was writing was complaining, contemplating, pondering, dumping random thoughts onto the screen. I just haven't had the urge to do this lately.

In about 3 weeks I will likely be officially divorced, it seems like it happened a long time ago, but officially it hasn't happened yet. We separated last summer, I have been living on my own since then. We still talk, visit maybe once a week or so, but what we had is no longer there. It is better this way though, I now see that she brought a lot of negative energy into my life. Life has been good since then, a little boring at times. Sometimes I wonder where my life is going. Next year I will be thirty, with one unsuccessful marriage under my belt.

Being single is nice, but I am at my peak as a person when I have someone else in my life. I have always been sort of a loner when it comes to having friends, sure I have friends, but there are very few people who I have met in my life who really understand me. Of course I like going out with people and having drinks and just letting off steam, but I also like people who have some substance behind them, people who understand that life is more than what most people think it is.

Anyway, even though I am a loner, I do like having someone special to do things with. I think because of what I just previously mentioned, I tend to get along with women better than men because the whole macho testosterone thing that is just ridiculous to me is out of the way. So the moral of that all is that I have been dating someone since January, it has been fun. In a way I am worried that I have come too close to giving up a freedom that many guys long for. Sometimes I think I need to date more, get a few experiences under my belt. But I am not great a meeting people for casual relationships, I really like having emotional intimacy, and being able to share things with someone who you care about for me trumps a night of fun with someone you hardly know. It also seems that I tend to get involved with women who are very outgoing and very social. Sort of strange for me being that I am not that outgoing nor am I that social, but I have always chalked it up to opposites attracting. I also think that it is good for me, to have someone who will keep me going rather than just getting into a slump and being a bum.

Well, that's that ... Maybe I'll post again this month, we'll see.

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