warm fuzzy

You know how every now and then something happens and you get a warm fuzzy feeling, or you feel suddenly inspired to change your life or your direction, or even try to change the way you live on a daily basis? Maybe a book, an article, an encounter, a new friend, a conversation. And then for a day or two you are on a high thinking of all the new possibilities... And then a few weeks go by and not a thing has changed, the feeling is gone. Well I want to know how to preserve that feeling long enough to make real change.

My favorite new music

Bloc Party, A Weekend In The City. I'm loving it. Good shit.

My latest reads

So I'm reading The Celestine Prophecy right now, and I gotta say, even though I'm for the most part open to the ideas expressed in the book, it hasn't been what I thought it would be. Parts of it just seem outright silly and unbelievable. I had figured it would be much better than it is so far. I mean, yea, it's a good story, the whole adventure ordeal, and it's certain incorporated some interesting messages that most novels don't have, but I just figured it would be more than it is.

I also just read a book called Ishmael, which I had never heard of before, and sure, it's got some silly and unbelievable back story, but I have to say, so far that one is much more intellectual and a better read this Celestine so far.

Given a week

I just found out that I get 4 weeks vacation this year! Nice!

Any suggestions on where to go? I'd probably be flyin' solo because my wife is pretty wrapped up in her new job, and won't be able to get the time off. I'm thinking either somewhere I can go and maybe meet some people to spend a week with, preferrably out of the country, or maybe one of those crazy treks or adventure trips.

My theory

So I have this theory about animals, and I guess in a way about people too. You know how some people are "animal people", as in animals like them, and some aren't. Well my theory is that animals can sense people's auras, or there energy or something. There are some people that come over to our place, and our cat loves them, goes right up to them, and some she just runs and hides, won't even give them a chance. So that's my theory.

I think it extends to people too. You know how sometimes you just get a vibe from people? I think it could be a sort of innate ability.

About Me

I've been trying to get down to what I really want in life. Here's the one minute in a nutshell version of what I think I am.


Love adventure, new things, traveling, exploring, thinking outside the box. That said, I'm often quiet, reserved, laid back, and needing a gentle push to actually do the things that I really want. Love nature, protecting the environment, hiking, sunsets, trying new things, thinking, reading, road trips, trains, eating healthy, organics, wanna be vegetarian, but now and again need a good messy burger, a few too many drinks, getting a little crazy. Looking to experience life. Afraid of living an ordinary life and wasting my life for someone else's dollar. Want to leave the country and see real people, lose my Americanisms. Try to do yoga but am not that good at it. Am too organized but want to become more spontaneous, want to learn to relax instead of thinking about what I need to do.

Hmm, well. I think that was ok. Maybe I'll come back to this later

Thoughts

quit

v., quit or quit·ted (kwĭt'ĭd), quit·ting, quits.

• To depart from; leave


• To give up; relinquish

This word has such a negative connotation. No one wants to be a quitter, it's an insult.

I think often about the day I will be able to quit my job, but it scares me to death. Not because I'd worry about myself, but because of the type of person I'd be categorized as ... a quitter. Such an American word.

If I came into money or had a good reason to quit, I'd probably be more nervous about telling my boss I quit than I would about my own life. I fantasize about the day I can walk out and never come back. And if I ever left, it would be because that is what is best for me. Whether it was for another job, or to take time off, or to pursue something different, it would be new, better, and exciting. But I know people wouldn't understand. My boss would wonder why I walked away from "such a great opporutunity." Fuck great opportunities. Great opportunity to me is living life, having freedom, and not wasting time in an office all day. I believe these things with 100% of my being, but I am such a product of our society that my conscience tells me I would be a quitter and be making a bad decision to take my own advice.

new apartment

After a long weekend, we are halfway settled into our new apartment in the Ocean Beach neighborhood of San Diego.