San Diego is...

Being in San Diego is great ... BUT. There are some downsides. One of the downsides is that the bus I take to work downtown comes from the beach where I live, and there are always college age kids on it who are clearly from other places here visiting, and while they're having an amazing vacation, checking out the city and going to the beaches, I'm going in to sit in an office and waste another day here in paradise.

It gets frustrating, especially for a wanna be traveler like me, to see all these out of towners here having fun. I always look at the locals when I'm traveling, and I envy them thinking about how great they must have it living in such and such a place, but maybe they are really like me, going about their life envying the travelers to their city.

The second downside. I realized last night that San Diego is like a time bubble. Nothing ever changes, not the weather, not the scenery. My whole life I've measured time by the seasons, thinking about what I did such and such summer, or what I'm going to do when winter ends. Now, just last night, I realized that seven years have gone by and I've not made much forward progress in my personal life. I mean I've got some good memories of the past years and have done some pretty cool stuff, but the reality is I'm almost 30 and don't like what I do for work so much these days, and more and more feel like I've lost sight of what I've wanted.

I'm not dead.

Some of these days over the past month I kinda wish I was (not really) though. Life has taken a drastic turn away from what I expected. No one has died, no one has a terminal illness, but things are seriously different. More later, maybe, if I feel like sharing.

I finally understand! I'm an introvert, and it's not bad! I always remember saying I'm not anti-social, I don't hate people (not all at least), I don't mind being alone...

Just kidding, I always understood, but had never really read about it before.